I think I'll buy a fixer-upper,
get a new roof, train the ivy -
I'll take the front door off, blow torch the paint to bubbling,
scrape, sand, stain, varnish...
add antique stained glass, new hardware...
What could I do with this dirty, scorched flagstone fireplace?...
I'll remove the paint
from this thrift store fireplace insert,
chisel out the stone,
buy an antique mantel, tile the space
between the wood and the insert and bolt it to the wall.
I could scrape off the cottage cheese, sparkle ceiling,
That fridge juts out past the doorway,
What a lovely red, shag carpet.
I could tear down that wall and put in a counter and new cabinets,
I need to strip the years of paint from the heat registers,
chisel out an arched doorway,
for a music room -
I can chisel out the kitchen side of this dead space behind the linen closet,
How lucky that there just happens to be
a fridge that fits.
I've accumulated a lot of magnets,
I feel delighted that the ready-made shelves
fit in the linen closet behind the fridge.
Done - I can close the doors on that one!
Hmmm, maybe I need to make this doorway arched too -
I'll mud and tape it in,
I think the bunny likes it.
Sink area, before,
sink area, after.
I'll chisel the floor out,
put in new tile,
Make a pedestal for a sink out of dowels
and a circular wood base so it will be higher than standard -
frame and hang Madame Butterfly poster.
oh, it's layers of paint, wallpaper, cement
and a window from before the back room was added.
I'll take it all off to expose the inner brick.
I could add a bookcase where that window used to be.
OK, now what?
Wow, this back room is really dark.
That's better -
Nifty old 70's paneling -
Rip it off, repair sheetrock, paint -
Back bathroom before,
back bathroom, after -
This is really rotten - I'm going to have to tear it all out.
Why is there no support around the toilet?
No wonder it felt like I was bouncing on a trampoline
when I sat down.
Done.I began renovating my fixer-upper after my divorce. I tore out walls, ripped out cabinets and exposed the most treasured of all treasures - inner brick. It was like uncovering my rough, wild inner nature. The whole experience was a metaphor for where I was in my life. When I walked in the front door and saw the asbestos-laden cottage cheese sparkle ceilings and filthy matted red shag carpet, I could hardly wait to tear into it. It was just as odd, irregular and messy as I felt inside. I was moving into an old, broken home, dying from neglect, and I took control of it.
Demolition was a violent process. Smashing down, cutting up, tearing out, hammering in - all of these actions expressed my frustration. At that point I knew I was reconstructing my life. I was choosing to mend everything within my reach. As I sledge-hammered out the soot-stained flagstone fireplace I felt like Tawanda from Fried Green Tomatoes. After completing the new fireplace, which included purchasing a vintage antique wooden mantle and tiling it in, I sat back and watched it for an hour like someone would watch TV. It was very meditative. The whole experience of being carpenter, plumber, locksmith, painter, electrician, tile installer, dry-waller and general grunt worker in my home was a very engrossing creative process.
The central themes in my home life are family and music. When looking for a home, I knew it had to accommodate my grandchildren and my grand piano. This made the search quite limiting, especially since my budget didn't allow for much space or luxury. Knocking down a wall between the living room and a bedroom was the solution. After using a screw driver to score a large arch in the lathe and plaster wall, I became 'Tawanda' again as I sledge-hammered gleefully. This room now displays my piano, violin, CD collection and photographs from all of the stage productions I've performed in.
When people ask me what in my background led me to think I could tackle such a huge job, I tell them I was brought up to make do with what I had. I also got a lot of training to be helpless and fascinating, but that didn't take. My parents labeled me stubborn and obstreperous, so I got a lot of reinforcement about my strong will being effective. With no particular skills coming into the project, I practically lived at Home Depot, where I acquired encouragement and advice, along with supplies.
I understand every inch of my house and I love it. In every way, I'm happy with where I reside. I love the dead space behind the linen closet that I pounded out and re-framed for my fridge and I love the little stained glass window I installed in my front door. When I'm coming home late at night and I see the light shining through the colored glass, I know I've made a place for myself that illuminates who I am - an independent, artistic, self-sufficient woman.